What do we Know and What we do not Know

Stan Here,

I am sure that almost everyone has experienced some sort of thing where at some point you  are  at a camp someplace in younger years and somebody asked you to shoot a arrow at a target. I recall those days.  The types of bows and arrows they gave you sort of sent those arrows in a way that nobody would ever be hurt. They sort of followed the laws of Newton as they arched to the the targeted bail of straw.

And that is analogous to what we have here.  But the arrows have sort of sharp point to them. They come in the form of delivering sharp pain, they arch their way in to a body that is not able to take much more and they come with a poison tip which arrive at  spot in a way that really can hurt.

And that folks is exactly what we face here.  As the Hospice people have visited a question they often ask is on a one to ten scale how might you describe the pain. I have not witnessed a answer of  anything less than a seven.  Long and short, we are in trouble here and the pain is sharp and consistent.

One of the most interesting things that happens here is that a different person wakes up every day. Good nights and bad.  From a husbands stand point the level of meds are stunning. While I know that others have faced this I would not be honest if I did not say that this is  a stunning event.  In that same frame is a respect for the quest of life and the desire to get out and do a few things. We have experienced a week or so of "getting out".

Deb has attended most all of the "January Series". We went to dinner with some friends this past weekend, we attended our church,  she still knows how to get mad at me (which is a good sign) and life on some fronts goes on as normal.

Most of all though is that our  friends have stayed with us in this most difficult period of life. So we do not know  the path this will take. We do see the destiny and the related emotion that comes with this all. What we do know is that in whatever path this might take we revel in the support of our friends.  Deb said it best the other day, "It is over the top"

We thank you all,

Stan